just writing to write

i really haven't posted anything in a long time. i guess i should. this past friday i moved everything from my dad's house to my mom's. on tuesday i started at port clinton high school. it's actually going ok...haven't made any friends though. except one guy, and i think his interest is not one of being friends...so...that's not all too good. the classes aren't all too hard...physics is actually cake compared to bridges' physics, i LOVE my literature class. we're reading Dante's Inferno. it's amazing. the teachers are cool, too. but i sit by myself at lunch, and that sucks. anyways though, i think i'm adjusting atleast rather well. i miss everyone terribly. there's this kid that kind of looks like brandon, and i probably freak him out because i'm always staring at him. i'm just drawn to him, though. but i know he's not really brandon....i haven't found anyone that looks like nick, unfortunately. there's just wayyy too many people, i can't keep all of them straight. there's no way i'll ever be able to meet them all. then there's this kid who looks like taylor, whom i had an odd run-in with a few months ago. he noticed me..and i'm not sure if that's good or bad. either way, we'll see. winter break is coming up quickly too =] but, just wanted to post something, say hi. call me sometime, whoever reads this. lol.

Salad Fingers

a light at the end of the tunnel.

do you know what i think is the best rule in the world? the rule that, if in a nursing home, no one is allowed to stop you from having sex if you and your partner have the mental and physical capacities to do so. (By the way, this only applies to residents of said nursing home...the thought just occurred to me that someone might take this as a free-for-all, and walk into a nursing home, thinking that they're legally allowed to have sex on the premises.) anyways, i think this is wonderful. i mean, if i have to get old, atleast now i know it won't be all bad. but i guess i don't have to worry about that anyways, i'm going to stop aging at 30. ha.

your voice in my head

My favorite song currently is "Cars and Telephones" by Arcade Fire. It gets to me so much...it's practically the embodiment of the feelings you get in a long distance relationship. This song kills me.

I read the pages about me
In her autobiography
They were brief and to the point
A flash, while you are getting dressed
A memory that needs to be repressed
I'll just wait until it's over

Since you've gone away
I never know just what to say
Since you've gone away
I never know just what to say

Cause I like cars more than telephones
Your voice in my ear makes me feel so alone
Tonight I'm gonna drive
The silver moon is shining bright
Over the interstate
God saying hurry don't be late
Soon the sun will rise
That's when the romance dies
And I'm just tired of running around

I walked
To get the mail today
I guess
Your letter never came
I'll just Check again tomorrow

A flash while you are getting dressed
A Memory that needs to be repressed
I'll just wait without saying a word

Since you've gone away
I never know just what to say
Since you've gone away
I never know just what to say

Cause I like cars more than telephones
Your voice in my head makes me feel so alone
Tonight I'm gonna drive
The silver moon is shining bright
Over the interstate
God saying hurry don't be late
Soon the sun will rise
That's when the romance dies
And I'm just tired of running around

But f*ck it I love you even if
I'm gonna feel like shit
By the time I get to you
Now the sky is turning blue
The stars they disappear
One by one as the daylights nears
And yes you're in my head
But that doesn't make you here
And I've lost all my friends
But you're the one I miss the most
And now I'm almost there
Yeah I'm almost to the coast
And if I had any notion
Of how I'm gonna drive my car across
the Atlantic Ocean,
I'd be f*cking set.

50 Things She Wishes You Knew

maybe brandon's right, i should get a hobby. i should! i like knitting, yes, but as mrs. stripe's knitting class proved last year, i'm not good at it...i think i'm too meticulous, and the whole process gets messed up because i'm pulling everything too tightly because i want it to look uniform. knitting would be nice though, and productive. perhaps i'll try again someday...perhaps embroidery. i could embroider sheep on EVERYTHING. i'd enjoy that. but yea, another day, doing absolutely nothing. can hopefully go to school tomorrow though =] here's a list of approximately 50 things that women wishes their boyfriends knew. i say approximately, because i edited the original article and took out some i didn't care for. but here's the rest, and i agree with the majority of them. lol. I took the time to highlight everything i really really agree with in white. haha. I would say that most women would have to agree with these as well. enjoy.


2. Real men drive stick shift.
3. I will leave if you lie.
4. You are cute in raglan-sleeved T-shirts (two-toned baseball undershirts).
6. I love it when you hug me from behind and whisper in my ear.
7. "Fine" is never an appropriate response when I ask you how I look.
8. Most of the time when I fantasize, it's about you.
9. I'm terrified of becoming my mother, even though I admire her.
10. I get turned on simply seeing that I have an e-mail from you.
11. I expect you to call me.
12. Only rock stars are allowed to wear leather pants. (AHEM, Brandon)
13. I'm scared of losing my independence.
14. I'm more forgiving of you than I really should be.
16. You did something bad. I seem cool with it. I'm not.
18. Shoes determine whether you're fashionable or not.
20. When I compare my flabby tummy to a kangaroo pouch, say nothing.
21. A man I love plans the occasional fancy-schmancy dress-up date and impromptu weekend getaways, and he buys my favorite candy in advance when we're just going to the movies.
22. You look hot in hooded clothing items.
23. You should never tell me what to do.
26. If you ask me out directly, I will say yes.
27. I'm very impressed when you ask for my advice.
28. I'm unimpressed with a man who doesn't take the lead.
29. When in doubt, go with the shirt that matches your eye color.
32. I'm in heaven when you hold my hand.
33. You're sexy when you're shaving, fixing things, wearing a white T-shirt and jeans, driving, eating a peach, holding a baby.
34. I need to hear how you feel about me. Often. Tell me now.
35. Surprises, especially gifts for moi = more loving.
36. I want to be the best thing that ever happened to you--and for you to recognize this.
37. If I'm not feeling loved, I will start looking....
38. Discussion of ex-gf's and ex-bf's should be avoided at all times.
39. I like it when you tell me what you're thinking, even if you don't know yourself.
40. Celebrating our anniversary, even if it's only been a few months, earns major bonus points.
41. I love it when you're sweaty.
42. It's best to consult your gal pals for gift ideas.
43. A lady should always be greeted with kisses.
47. It's cheating as soon as you're doing something with her that you wouldn't want me to see, hear, read...
48. For the record: I'd rather you break up with me than cheat.
49. I remember everything about our relationship.
50. You should know all this and more without my telling you.

boooooooooooored

so I've officially done NOTHING productive today. nothing. nunca. nada. woke up at 9:00, got ready for the day...realized everyone had left the house without me. in that time, i watched peter pan. then everyone came home, and immediately went to their rooms to hide. so, i've been in mine for the past four hours, watching spongebob. i've also eaten nothing worthwhile. two chocolate covered cherries (soon to be three), a bowl of frosted mini wheats, and a cup of dehydrated, processed, salt-based chicken bouillion noodles. yum yum. so...offline again for more spongebob, and..yea. my eyes are going to burn out of my head.