jason mraz (the remedy)

i remember watching this video when i was in...oh, about,...sixth grade? loved the song, still do. =] great times.

Passenger Seat, Death Cab For Cutie

I roll the window down
And then begin to breathe in
The darkest country road
And the strong scent of evergreen
From the passenger seat as you are driving me home.

Then looking upwards
I strain my eyes and try
To tell the difference between shooting stars and satellites
From the passenger seat as you are driving me home.

"do they collide?"
I ask and you smile.
With my feet on the dash
The world doesn't matter.

When you feel embarrassed
then i'll be your pride
When you need directions
then i'll be the guide

For all time.
For all time.

june update

i haven't been keeping up on my blog lately....probably because i don't have much to say. the concert brandon and i went to on the thirteenth was absolutely amazing. ben gibbard was great, but he definetly didn't make the whole show. the entire band is wonderful. if ever you get the chance to go see a show at the plain dealer pavillion in cleveland, do it. it's big, pretty, and the view behind the band is awesome. in a decently safe part of the city too, except when you get...lost...heh. i'm glad we didn't get mugged. lol. been working a lot, which is good, as i need a car...hopefully will have wheels soon. that's about all the update i can think to give. (oh yeah, the bachelorette is a terrible, terrible show. i feel SO bad for these poor men. they're head over heels for this beautiful girl. they get to go on a romantic date in the bahamas, and then spend the night in a fantasy suite together. each one does, one right after the other. and they all tell her that they're in love with her for the first time. they all think they're in. ha, right.) OH yeah! I get to go to the zoo tomorrow with my family! :)

*grinning like an idiot*

yea, so this weekend was cool. penelope got taken, that sucked terribly, but...that's the only downside i can think of. saturday was amazing. the best day i've had for a long time. that's all i can think to say, really. =]

i feel like a million freaking bucks. it's a beautiful night, cool and balmy, the stars are out. i can't wait to lay under the stars sometime this summer, i love the night sky. school is over for now, i finished those ridiculous tests. my family is chill, i'm looking forward to a good weekend. i have watermelon. really, what other melon beats watermelon? i mean, any kind of melon is amazing, but watermelon? pfft, it tops all. my music is playing, definetly feeling it. i'm relaxed and sleepy. the drink i had a little while ago probably didn't hurt either...just one, mind you, but i have a low alcohol tolerance. just enough to mellow me out completely. oh yea, i'm also in love with a small dog named penelope. i named her, she's mine. she loves me back. (see amorously cute picture below). i want to go sleep under the stars now. i love beautiful feelings like this.

--Penelope. <3

end of may report

so this past weekend went really well. left me dead tired, but still went really well. i finally got to do something other than sit at home on saturday! brandon graduated, and i attended his commencement, which i thought went well. wasn't nearly as grueling as any other graduation ceremony i've ever been to. even ben's valedictorian speech was nice. so yeah, commencement was cool...and of course, the party was even better. :) got to hang out with friends i haven't seen for months, got to meet some of brandon's family, and overall, got to just relax and have fun. then on sunday and monday i started my new job...prehistoric forest. lol. it's...interesting, to say the least. i'm really happy im finally working, especially at a place that's so tolerable. it'll keep me busy and not-broke (for once) during the summer. AND! school's almost over! atleast for this year...i really, really, really wish i could be done now. it feels like i'm a senior because of the classes i have and kids i hang around with. my name has actually gotten the prefix "except for". example: a teacher says "everyone will be taking the exam this thursday, as it is the senior's last day, except for liz." or, "everyone's last day will be thursday, except for liz." i guess it could go the other way too...like, "everyone is going to fail this test, except for liz." (i've never heard that one yet, though). perhaps it's rather endearing to them, as i've become a bit of a pet to the senior class, but it's still awfully depressing for me. anyway...summer break is almost here, and i'm pretty sure it's gonna be awesome.

Samson

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth

I have to go, I have to go

Your hair was long when we first met
Samson went back to bed

Not much hair left on his head
Ate a slice of wonder bread and

Went right back to bed

And the history books forgot about us

And the bible didn't mention us

No the bible didn't mention us, not even once

You are my sweetest downfall

I loved you first, I loved you first

Beneath the stars came falling on our heads

But they're just old light, they're just old light

Your hair was long when we first met

Samson came to my bed
Told me that my hair was red

Told me i was beautiful and

Came into my bed

Oh i cut his hair myself one night

A pair of dull scissors in the yellow light

And he told me that i'd done alright

And kissed me till the morning light, the morning light

Samson went back to bed

Not much hair left on his head

Ate a slice of wonder bread and

Went right back to bed

Oh we couldn't bring the columns down

Yeah we couldn't destroy a single one

And the history books forgot about us

And the bible didn't mention us, not even once

You are my sweetest downfall

I loved you first

I hate the Media.

Poor Miley Cyrus. God, i feel so bad for the girl. Seriously, all this crap over one picture? Mind you, a picture taken at a classy Vanity Fair shoot, by a renowned photographer. Not only was Miley's family there to approve of the photos and support her, but they all agreed that it was a good shot. I think it was a beautiful picture. People have to understand that she's getting older too. It's not like she was posing for Playboy, sprawled out on a bed in stilettos. For goodness sakes, she had pants on when they took the picture! From what I've read, everyone was in agreeance that it was an alright picture until the magazine came out, the media started to make a fuss, and then she got embarassed. Now they've got Donny and Marie Osmond on Entertainment Tonight, saying how big of a mistake it was, and that they're disappointed in her. Who are they to say what she should and shouldn't do? It was the decision of herself and her parents. I really think she needs to stand up for herself and have confidence in her decisions. That photo was not trashy. I don't understand how everybody thinks they need to gasp in shock. Have they walked out of their front door lately, turned on their TV or computer? There are so many unsightly, disgusting things in the world, and they think a picture like that is shameful? NO, she's not turning into a troubled teen. NO, she's not going to be the next Brittney. And NO, she should NOT be ashamed.

crazy women

so sylvia plath scares me...she really does. i mean, she's dead, but she freaks me out. the more i read her poems, the more i like them. they're just what i would write if i had any talent. and then comes her novel 'the bell jar'. i'm over half way through it, but i'm not sure i want to finish. it's all about a girl named esther who's about 22, living in the 50s. although she's very smart and has a lot of college scholarships and other great opportunities in her life, she somehow slips into insanity. (and i would assume that she'll atleast attempt suicide later in the book). this mirrors sylvia plath's own life, which mirrors mine. (sidenote: for one thing, if i could choose any decade to live in, it'd definetly be the 50s. lol) in real life, sylvia lived in the 50s. i think anne sexton lived around that time too, another great woman poet, in my opinion. i have so many similar feelings and thoughts to these women. or maybe i just like dark, tortured people. thing is, they both killed themselves. i wish i were alive back then to talk to sylvia, maybe i could make some sense of myself. maybe i could be her friend, and convince her to keep living. maybe i'd just end up going crazy with her. sometimes i worry that that'll be my fate as well.

i don't know as much as i thought i did

so i'm getting pretty good at this rejection thing. it's quite simple really. "no, no, no, and...no." that's just about how it goes. a nice friend finally built up the courage to ask me out today, and of course, i turned him down. i'm just not looking right now i guess. or am i? i'm also starting to realise that i've never had a normal relationship, nor have i entered a relationship in a normal fashion. which is kinda bad, considering i've had two serious relationships so far. i'm really bad at this whole relationship thing. i need to learn how to have a normal relationship. either that, or i'll be single for the rest of my life. which, honestly, does not sound half bad. today i found the technical term for having a phobia of getting married, but unfortunately i forget what it is. marriage really does not seem that appealing now-a-days. it used to. i don't think i even want a relationship. haha. reminds me a of a 'how to deal' scene. macon asks halley out on a date, and she says she thinks she already likes him too much to actually go out with him. "What kind of logic is that?" he asks. "Well, it's logical logic. Haven't you noticed? When two members of the opposite sex get together, eventually someone ends up getting hurt?" oh-so-true.

i can't even think of a title.

god i'm mad at lele. why the heck would she do that? i hear they got married on friday. i was her best friend for twelve years, and i didn't even get to see her get married, much less be in her wedding. i'm so pissed off at her. even if she does come back, at this point, i'm not sure if i'll want to talk to her again. so much for friendship, apparently boys are more important.

4/20

so....i'm 17! yay!.....aside from bandon dropping by today, it was seriously one of the most boring weekends EVER. my mom has bronchitis too, so....that totally sucks. i can't wait till school's out. it's dragging on and on and on and on and on. and on. i really can't think of anything else to say.....

swine

i want to find a sea monster. or atleast see one. something made me remember how fascinated i was with them at one time, for some reason. did a lot of looking at cryptozoology "information". or, as information-y as you might call it, for most of it is probably untrue. but really, the earth is so vast and endlessly intricate, how are we supposed to know about every creature it holds? i think there's so many oddities of nature that we haven't yet discovered. come to think of it, i wouldn't want them to catch nessie. she probably has a heck of a lot of fun just doing her thing, why allow her to be poked and prodded by scientists?

i wonder what's on the very bottom at the deepest part of the ocean. scary fish, most likely. i wonder what the biggest spider in the world is (then again, maybe not =/) i wonder if there's truly any radioactive substances in lake erie that could cause one to grow three legs. i wonder where the nunnels are, and how i can get there. moreso than this, i wonder why we never before heard of a five-legged pig within a mile of our school. and thus, why were we never assigned the Quest of the Five-Legged Porker? why do i have to move twice in three days? why won't my cat leave me alone? this is getting ridiculous, i better stop.

wild world

cat stevens has become one of my favorite artists lately. i also have a slight obsession with Harold & Maude, so the soundtrack for the movie by cat stevens is pleasantly perfect. although this song isn't on that particular album, it's still nice. and was (is) quite popular.

Now that i've lost everything to you
You say you wanna start something new
And it's breakin' my heart you're leavin'
Baby, i'm grievin'
But if you wanna leave, take good care
Hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
But then a lot of nice things turn bad out there

Oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
It's hard to get by just upon a smile
Oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
I'll always remember you like a child, girl

You know i've seen a lot of what the world can do
And it's breakin' my heart in two
Because i never wanna see you a sad, girl
Don't be a bad girl
But if you wanna leave, take good care
Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
But just remember there's a lot of bad and beware

Baby, i love you
But if you wanna leave, take good care
Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
But just remember there's a lot of bad and beware

april april april

so the months' almost finally over. it's taken forever. so yeah, i get to move! decorating! :D not too many more days of school, will be a year older in 21 days, and i'll be attending a Death Cab For Cutie concert in june! woo! maybe spring will actually show up sometime soon. it keeps snowing, just when you think it's over. i want warm air, humid rain, summer skin. lol. can't wait to watch the kite runner. it finally comes out, and of course, family video lets me down. oh yea, brandon's got my whole family hooked on Guitar Hero. i called about 5 different places trying to find the best deal. surprise, walmart actually does. evil empire! i'm blabbering...i usually have many more thoughts than this. but they always seem to escape when i want to use them. ah well. later. oh yea, new DCFC song :)

How I wish you could see the potential, the potential of you and me.
Its like a book elegantly bound but in a language that you can't read.

It says:
You gotta spend some time, love. You gotta spend some time with me,
and I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart.
You gotta spend some time, love. You gotta spend some time with me,
and I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart.

There are days when outside your window, I see my reflection as I slowly pass
And I long for this mirrored perspective when we'll be lovers at last.

You gotta spend some time, love. You gotta spend some time with me,
and I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart.
You gotta spend some time, love. You gotta spend some time with me,
and I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart.

You reject my advances and desperate plea. I won't let you let me down so easily. So easily.

You gotta spend some time, love. You gotta spend some time with me,
and I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart.
You gotta spend some time, love. You gotta spend some time with me,
and I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart.

I will possess your heart.
I will possess your heart.

eeee

so yeah...i'm dead tired. it's a good tired though. a 12 hour going all day, but doing something good tired. AND we got an accepted offer on a little place today. "mo-bile home", yes, but neat, adequate, and permanent. just what we needed, really. plus, it's in a 55-and-older community, so atleast we'll have a decent neighborhood. i'm just happy i wont' be a gypsy anymore. maybe next month things'll settle down. hopefully. stupid snow...it started snowing, and it hasn't stopped. if i can't get out tomorrow, i'm screwed...btw, if anyone's trying to call me, i left my phone at someone's house, and wont' have it back till tomorrow, sorry. =/ but anyways there are always so many things i want to write on here, and by the time i get to it, they've all left my head. i'm falling asleep. adios

bandom bits of bitty banter

I SUPPOSE i'm feelin ok. finally getting the chance to just sit and relax for a little bit. i've been running since last tuesday. oh, how i love the sophomores. they have to take the OGTs next week, and thus, i get a one hour delay every day this week, and a two hour delay every day next week! :D i'm starting to wonder if this episode of AFV will EVER end. it's been on for two hours straight. it's addicting, though. never endingly funny. they have a video of a little girl telling her dad she wants a "weenie" so she can pee standing up. she was crying. it was hillarious. i need to find a lip stick color.

WE JUST finished reading Kite Runner in Roth's class. it's a good book. i wouldn't say a great book, as it lacks some qualities of "great" literature. yet, it sucks you in like a black hole, and it stays with ya.

HAHA, my mom just said "you know how the couches we have turn into sofas?". (they turn into beds).

APPARENTLY at one point in time, my sweet little grandma K took a flashy jacket out of the closet that she had bought in the 50s. it was a black woolen material, the collar lined with leopard print fur. striking a pose as she put it on, she claimed "and this is genuine leprechaun fur!".

I'M ONE of those people that attract those people that don't go away. you know, the ones that are boisterous, obnoxious, and really abbrasive? i seem to just suck them in like mosquitoes to a bug zapper in the backwoods on an august night. and it doesn't kill em'. no, no way. that'd be too easy. they're super mosquitoes, wings clad with reinforced steel amor, all four feet with steel toed boots, helmets, swords and shields. (oh, btw, if you're reading this, you're not one of the people i'm referring too. i would never give them a way to contact me.)

THIS IS a rather long blog, and perhaps i should get some sleep. talk to you all later. ciao!

*eye twitches*

so i'm sitting here with a bowl of mediocre vegetable soup, and have somehow ended up watching a blue grass concert on PBS. How? I don't know, goodness, i don't know. I think i'm losing my mind...i haven't left the house since Tuesday. I'm bored out of my mind. And now there's old men with banjos and hippies dancing on my TV! :( Ya know, i was always convinced I should've gotten my license when i turned 16. I was totally wrong. Now, almost a year later, still dun have it, but will soon. And in comes the mob squad. I'm bombarded with rules. I didn't know how much I hated rules. but I really do. i don't like authority, i don't like people telling me what to do. takes a lot of humility on my part to suck it up and be a good kid. that's another thing, i don't like not being 18. it really can't come too soon. that fact is pretty much messing up everythign right now. yea, i need to go turn off the bluegrass. ciao

oasis

Oh yeah, here's "dont' Look Back in Anger" from Oasis. good stuff.

Slip inside the eye of your mind
Don't you know you might find
A better place to play
You said that you'd once never been
All the things that you've seen
Will slowly fade away

So I'll start the revolution from my bed
Cos you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside the summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out

So Sally can wait, she knows its too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger I hear you say

Take me to the place where you go
Where nobody knows if it's night or day
Please don't put your life in the hands
Of a Rock n Roll band
Who'll throw it all away

So I'll start the revolution from my bed
Cos you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside the summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out

So Sally can wait, she knows its too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger I hear you say

Don't look back in anger
Don't look back in anger
Don't look back in anger
At least not today

gym shoes

so...i haven't written in awhile. today sucked. i got broken up with, and somebody stole my brand new frigging gym shoes. now, who would want to take a pair of $25 shoes that i got from Walmart? seriously. i had to leave them in my gym locker for one single night, because i didn't have a lock. why are people so undecent? so that's my mother's money down the drain. yaay! anyways...for some reason i feel ok. free, really. relieved. (not because of the shoes, mind you, i liked them.) GAH! I HATE THE NEWS!!! i was watching a show! and ABC thinks it has the right to just CUT IT OUT to give us an ELECTION UPDATE!!! GAH! *sigh*. my goal today has been to not physically assault someone. success, so far. but yeah...i haven't done anything totally fun lately. i might go to brandon's on friday for a heath ledger movie night. all i gotta say is, we better watch 10 things i hate about you. ;) so i'll leave you all so you can stop reading all of my stupid mumbling. later.

EEEEEEEEEEEECOIDNAINVIEON@!!!!983!

So yeah...haven't posted again in awhile. not much is new. I'm keeping real busy, going to school and whatnot. my english class is actually...insane. the teacher is...very passionate. lol. he's cool though. i learned how to knit! ha! i'm pretty happy about that. i'm making some friends at school. there's a nice girl from Chile named Natalia. there's a kid named John, he's cool, and we seem to be on the same wavelenth. then there's the kid that reminds me of brandon, he's really nice, we've gotten to talk, and work together. his name is ben. so anyways, i can't think of anything to talk about really. just...hello world. (Oh yea, i got my iPod, finally :D) see ya'll later.