If it weren't for my horse...

yaay! im going away for a week! i can't wait, it's my first big trip out of state. new york here i come!!! i hope it'll be fun. if nothing else, ill come back ten pounds heavier, as my father insisted that he buy me tons of junkfood for the long and grueling bus ride. for instance, we bought chocolatle covered tootsie rolls. now why in the world would i need chocolate covered tootsie rolls? for a snack, yes, but why chocolate covered tootsie rolls? tootsie rolls are already chocolate, putting a coating of chocolate on top of them is ridiculous. i can already feel those tiny processed, chocolate bricks laying in my stomach. *shudders*. nevertheless, i did get andes thin mints, sweet tarts, a giant hersheys bar, granola bars, a super huge bag of twizzlers, and a lot more that i can't even remember. go obesity! my overall goal on this trip is to find and buy a mint green ipod nano video for under $120. gotta love china town. anyways, i hope it'll be fun trip. i shall miss everyone. xoxo.

wildflowers

so i've finally decided to leave. i just hope things get better from here. it's like i'm going into a completely different world, everything's going to change. i feel burdened with guilt, i'm hurting a lot of people with this decision. at the same time though, i'm making another lot of people very happy, and hopefully myself. i worry that things might not be better...maybe i'll regret it? just thinking about what my father and stepmom are feeling right now makes me cry. i just hope that it's worth it. if not, i don't think i'll be able to forgive myself. i'm trying to focus on being happier and more fulfilled, but at the moment it's not working. guess there's no going back now anyways, so it doesn't matter. atleast i still have the rest of my life ahead of me to make it up. *sigh*

Wildflowers

You belong among the wildflowers
You belong in a boat out at sea
Sail away, kill off the hours
You belong somewhere you feel free

Run away, find you a lover
Go away somewhere all bright and new
I have seen no other
Who compares with you

You belong among the wildflowers
You belong in a boat out at sea
You belong with your love on your arm
You belong somewhere you feel free

Run away, go find a lover
Run away, let your heart be your guide
You deserve the deepest of cover
You belong in that home by and by

You belong among the wildflowers
You belong somewhere close to me
Far away from your trouble and worries
You belong somewhere you feel free
You belong somewhere you feel free

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i did it.