i'm just perpetually stuck in dysfunctional relationships. whether it be with family, or a significant other, it's always a codependant thing, and i always end up with the short end of the stick. i can't escape it. i feel like half a person. it's 2:00 in the morning, and i can't sleep. i don't even know why i'm around anymore. i'm not living for my own benefit, always somebody else's. i think i've run out of things to give. now i'm just focused on not hurting anybody else. no matter what decision i make, someone's always hurt by it. it doesn't matter that it's my decision, and that i'm the one that's directly affected by it. maybe i'm going to live the rest of my life like this. wouldn't matter much i guess, i barely feel it anymore. it's like a huge scar. the scar tissue doesn't have much feeling left. i can't even express my real problems on here. and i'm too stupid not to fix it. and eventually i'll run out of people to help me with it. i'm never going to escape. just another day, with my fake countenance slowly deteriorating.
She says wake up, its no use pretending
I'll keep stealing, breathing her.
Birds are leaving, over autumn's ending.
one of us will die inside these arms.
eyes wide open
naked as we came.
one will spread our
ashes round the yard.
She says if i leave before you darling,
don't you waste me in the ground.
I lay smiling, like our sleeping children.
one of us will die inside these arms.
eyes wide open
naked as we came.
one will spread our
ashes round the yard.
Iron and Wine.
1 comment:
You shouldn't focs on the fact that you might hurt someone. As people we hurt someone, somehow, everyday, most of the time we just don't realize it. I think rather than focusing on preventing the possible pain that someone might feel. You should focus on that pain that you are already experiencing... Just a suggestion...
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